I had such grand plans to watch/listen to the concert tonight! Friday night, don't have to work tomorrow, etc. Yeah, right! My first obsession (kitties) took over my second obsession (Adam). Sorry, Adam, but it is what it is.
Just as the concert was ready to start, the current *bully cat* that has been coming around, started fighting with my sweet ferals. GRRRR! I have 7 furries I take care of, that I have done TNR on (trap, neuter, release) and they are all sweethearts. For some reason,or another this cat seems to come in and terrorize them. DAMMIT!!
So, every few minutes, I'm running out the door, chasing him away. Can't even put on my headphones or even listen for fear that I won't hear something. WTF?? So sick & tired of it. I'm going to trap him, get him fixed & relocate. Sounds easy, but not so much.
I already have a fear (and actually panic) when I use my headphones from an earlier experience in January. I was just getting over that, and now this cat is bringing it all back. I really, REALLY wanted to listen to this concert tonight. *sigh* Guess I'll catch up on the vids tomorrow. It's not all bad, and I'm thankful for all those who take vids for us. I was just so looking forward to tonight, after a really rough week at work. Oh well...shit happens.
To further explain why this is so traumatic to me, I actually lost a sweet bb girl last January, was probably a fox (dammit, sorry Dr. Brian, but I hate them) and I found her right after getting up at 2am to listen to Adam in Singapore (I think). It was Jan. 22nd. She was a darling girl and I had made a safe (or so I thought) shelter for the ferals. It had an in and out door, as I was instructed. She didn't make it out and I found her right after the concert, which I listened to with my headphones on. If I hadn't, I might have heard her. I'll never know, but I'm broken now, and always in fear of one of my bb's being hurt or worse.
I'm so thankful for all of you for posting vids and recaps. They make me feel like I was there, and I appreciate that so much. I hope I get past all of this. I'm trying, I really am. Some may get this, and some may not. It's ok, I understand. I love my kitties. I always have, and I always will. I have 4 inside that were ferals. They are the sweetest bb's ever. Two of my outside bb's are almost ready to become inside kitties, but there isn't much room in here. I absolutely HATE having any kitty outside!! It's my biggest fear, ever!!
Ok, enough of that. Sorry, but needed to vent a bit. As I said, it's been a rough week or 2 at work, and I just needed to relax and listen to Adam in all his glory! Wish I could have.
Not looking for pity or anything, If this is too OT, then feel free to delete. I love Adam just as much as all of you do. I hate that I can't even listen to him anymore without feeling anxious or going into a full blown panic. It's breaking my heart.
One nice thing to note that happened tonight. Nile Rogers favorited one of my tweets tonight, and then actually tweeted back to me about the 20/20 show tonight. If you didn't see it, check it out. It was amazing. He does so much good, and it made my heart happy.
Thanks for listening to me rant on, Love you all!!