Thanks for the responses. I find it hard to express my feelings at those times when they are not as positive as usual as it seems, unless I'm misunderstanding, that some don't really like those kinds of comments. Some days are just hard and the media crap or numbers get to me. I'm just looking for support. I do love and appreciate the positive feedback, attempts to cheer me up, and reminders of what's important. I love Adam so much and my belief in him does not waver. But, I'm human and get scared sometimes. I also feel some push back on expressing these feelings, which is a little hard when I'm feeling bad. I don't do this often and will have to think before I post next time.
Again, thanks for the dialogue.
Oh. You think. So do I. All of us. Look at the conversation, the communication you began.
I cannot begin to explain how I dream, live, worry, expect, foresee, angst, exclaim, cry, cringe . . . and then he takes the stage . . . and I go fucking nuts and dance till I'm left only to gasp.
Here I am - at the computer - instead of in front of the TV or sewing machine - the way it used to be. Things are very different since I heard his voice.
I worry about many things, just like you. But, the ONE thing I don't worry about is Adam's success. It may not be coming in the way I might imagine, but it will come, because excellence will not be denied. And Adam is not just 'excellent'.
Back when I used to sing, I performed and if I was really 'excellent' I was elevated to 'command performance' status. I learned that there is always a 'bar' for beyond. Adam is creating a new 'bar'; I really feel his excellence is restructuring not only our societal barriers but our long-standing musical barriers and judgements, as well.
Boy - isn't it about time?
one day I'll fly away; leave all this to yesterday . . .
Thanks for the responses. I find it hard to express my feelings at those times when they are not as positive as usual as it seems, unless I'm misunderstanding, that some don't really like those kinds of comments. Some days are just hard and the media crap or numbers get to me. I'm just looking for support. I do love and appreciate the positive feedback, attempts to cheer me up, and reminders of what's important. I love Adam so much and my belief in him does not waver. But, I'm human and get scared sometimes. I also feel some push back on expressing these feelings, which is a little hard when I'm feeling bad. I don't do this often and will have to think before I post next time.
Again, thanks for the dialogue.
I interpret a person questioning concern as asking for others to lift them up. I don't take others angst as something negative. Sometimes I may be having my own angst and in this case I don't feel alone even though I may not post about it. Other times I take another person's angst as a time for extending a helping hand of support about why not need to feel down.
Don't think anybody should feel bad about having a moment of doubt and wanting some hope and uplifting comments from others here.
Last Edit: May 30, 2012 23:16:16 GMT -5 by adamfanem
RjacksPF, sorry today was your day to get the patented pushback. I think my favorite was yesterday's response to the effect that "some may indulge in angst and wank and that is OK."
Wow. Thanks!
momtomany, you are amazing. I would love to respond to some of the things you said but it seems too late in the day and I can't face waking up to being misunderstood, so let me just say . You are my hero!
Did they interview Adam in Montreal? I saw part of the ustream with the BTS guy speaking french & I saw the video of the crowd signing NCOE, but did they actually talk to him? Anybody got a link to an interview? Or maybe it doesn't exist?
I pulled this from the thread. Have you seen this? Ustream recorded interview of Adam on Musique Plus !
Starts at about 28 minutes
Last Edit: May 30, 2012 23:14:13 GMT -5 by stampsgal
Did they interview Adam in Montreal? I saw part of the ustream with the BTS guy speaking french & I saw the video of the crowd signing NCOE, but did they actually talk to him? Anybody got a link to an interview? Or maybe it doesn't exist?
I pulled this from the thread. Ustream recorded interview of Adam on Musique Plus !
Been so busy lately, but I just want to say that I think the MV for NCOE, and watching Adam on it, is making NCOE grow on me.
My husband is away on a short job in a different state and went to dinner at the home of his best high school/college buddy who lives where he is shooting. Guess what was playing? Trespassing! Apparently, his friend's wife is a big fan and bought the album the first week. The dinner guests all agreed it was a really great album, men and women.
My husband says he can't get the songs from Trespassing out of his head, and he has only listened to the album a few times. I just keep feeling so proud of Adam! This album he has made is really that good.
I am so touched by theogma and momtomany's posts. It is so nice to have others so eloquently write what is in my heart.
Wanting so badly for Adam to get his just desserts is frustrating and we all have our dark hours, I imagine. In the attempt to hold off the darkness some like to forget that it exists whenever possible. But don't feel bad for the way you feel, or for expressing it. This is a great site to help us, not just celebrate the wins, but also the injustices.
Tonight, I am loving this community and all that Adam gives us!
"I prefer folks with their own, individual point of view and the balls to verbalize it" -Adam Lambert
Thanks for the responses. I find it hard to express my feelings at those times when they are not as positive as usual as it seems, unless I'm misunderstanding, that some don't really like those kinds of comments. Some days are just hard and the media crap or numbers get to me. I'm just looking for support. I do love and appreciate the positive feedback, attempts to cheer me up, and reminders of what's important. I love Adam so much and my belief in him does not waver. But, I'm human and get scared sometimes. I also feel some push back on expressing these feelings, which is a little hard when I'm feeling bad. I don't do this often and will have to think before I post next time.
Again, thanks for the dialogue.
Oh. You think. So do I. All of us. Look at the conversation, the communication you began.
I cannot begin to explain how I dream, live, worry, expect, foresee, angst, exclaim, cry, cringe . . . and then he takes the stage . . . and I go fucking nuts and dance till I'm left only to gasp.
Here I am - at the computer - instead of in front of the TV or sewing machine - the way it used to be. Things are very different since I heard his voice.
I worry about many things, just like you. But, the ONE thing I don't worry about is Adam's success. It may not be coming in the way I might imagine, but it will come, because excellence will not be denied. And Adam is not just 'excellent'.
Back when I used to sing, I performed and if I was really 'excellent' I was elevated to 'command performance' status. I learned that there is always a 'bar' for beyond. Adam is creating a new 'bar'; I really feel his excellence is restructuring not only our societal barriers but our long-standing musical barriers and judgements, as well.
Boy - isn't it about time?
momtomany: I totally agree with this post and your earlier one. It is getting late in the thread and so soon a new one will start but wanted to say - well written.
One other thing standing out in my mind: I think it was in an interview yesterday? (can't keep up), anyway he said something like when I'm not peacocking........ then about being more real....
It HIT ME: This is why (IMHO) Adam has so many females flocking around him and would be so whether he was gay or straight if he looked the same as he has been since many of us starting noticing him. He IS a peacock! As in male birds are generally much more beautiful then the female, many animals the same (lions for example) and then tribes where the male adorns jewelery and displays dance... In that kingdom the male is on display and the female reacts to this.
So next time some dude asks why does Adam have so many females that flock to him or are fans I will just say because he is the Peacock, LOL!
OT, BTW I actually had a male Peacock as a pet for awhile. Got him at a farmers action. Built a house for him and started to let him loose after a while thinking he would stay in the area since he knew where the food was. Well, one evening he left never to return. Last comment: they are LOUD, so unless you have a really large acreage the neighbors won't be happy:-)
Last Edit: May 30, 2012 23:31:08 GMT -5 by adamfanem
Besides which, has anyone else noticed how many of the "disgruntled Freddie fans" around the internets misspell Freddie's name as Freddy? I guaran-damn-tee you, most people who are fanatic, impassioned fans of a particular artist actually do know how to spell that artist's name.
It does make me wonder just who these disgruntled fans are really fans of. ;D
Thanks for the responses. I find it hard to express my feelings at those times when they are not as positive as usual as it seems, unless I'm misunderstanding, that some don't really like those kinds of comments. Some days are just hard and the media crap or numbers get to me. I'm just looking for support. I do love and appreciate the positive feedback, attempts to cheer me up, and reminders of what's important. I love Adam so much and my belief in him does not waver. But, I'm human and get scared sometimes. I also feel some push back on expressing these feelings, which is a little hard when I'm feeling bad. I don't do this often and will have to think before I post next time.
Again, thanks for the dialogue.
Oh. You think. So do I. All of us. Look at the conversation, the communication you began.
I cannot begin to explain how I dream, live, worry, expect, foresee, angst, exclaim, cry, cringe . . . and then he takes the stage . . . and I go fucking nuts and dance till I'm left only to gasp.
Here I am - at the computer - instead of in front of the TV or sewing machine - the way it used to be. Things are very different since I heard his voice.
I worry about many things, just like you. But, the ONE thing I don't worry about is Adam's success. It may not be coming in the way I might imagine, but it will come, because excellence will not be denied. And Adam is not just 'excellent'.
Back when I used to sing, I performed and if I was really 'excellent' I was elevated to 'command performance' status. I learned that there is always a 'bar' for beyond. Adam is creating a new 'bar'; I really feel his excellence is restructuring not only our societal barriers but our long-standing musical barriers and judgements, as well.
Boy - isn't it about time?
Yes, my life changed too when I heard his voice. Not sure I was even aware at the time and didn't know what was to come. I'm invested in his welfare as if he's a part of me. So, sometimes I feel too much (my barriers are down). I often think "what would Adam do?" or "what would Adam think?" and it gives me strength. Don't know why some days I'm weaker than others. Work, life, sleep...I actually teared up earlier today when I read some negative shit about Adam and was angry at myself for reacting that way. I'll snap back. Always do.
"I want to lose my mind, like a maniac and cross the line, never looking back..."
Post by HoppersSkippersMiners on May 30, 2012 23:36:37 GMT -5
[wanders in yawning, wearing a grass skirt, and carrying the lolly bucket]
[starts handing out karmic cream lollies]
[shakes bucket until a batch of lemoncello-n-kalula swirl lollies appear as well]
It totally ok to have angst and doubts.
[grins] Tho' most numbers angsting should really go on the Numbers thread. There's a much higher level of venting there then what's usually encouraged on the main theads. The main News thread generally aims to be a bit more "glittery and golden", particularly when there truly is so much wonderful stuff happening.
Baby steps.
[laughs] Although this baby is definitely starting to run ;D. With some work, the rest of the barriers will fall away too.
[wistles as wanders back to other thread, carrying sharpened lolly]
vivlite: We should call shoutbox, Atop 2! I didn't know there was a separate thread going on down here..I'll have to visit more often. I see posters here I don't see on the thread. I hope that doesn't mean you feel alienated on the main thread..
May 31, 2013 19:31:04 GMT -5
lorraine: I don't know what PM"d means and OI don't know how to post on the adamtopia thread> I am hopeless!!!
Jun 3, 2013 2:38:11 GMT -5
SophieB: Hi Lorraine!Have just seen your shout out. I'll try to help with my reply on page2 of today's thread.
Jun 3, 2013 5:17:47 GMT -5
lorraine: Thank you SophieB. I hope I have followed your instructions correctly and that you receive this message. I will also have to figure out how to post on the regular thread.
Jun 3, 2013 5:51:59 GMT -5
SophieB: Lorraine I sent you a second PM with those instructions in it...perhaps you didn't see it. It's there somewhere
Jun 3, 2013 9:50:46 GMT -5
vivlite: LOL...I sent Lorraine a PM too..look for a balloon above your messages. Or click on messages and any
Jun 3, 2013 17:53:07 GMT -5
vivlite: new ones will show up as NEW in purple. The balloon doesn't always work.
Jun 3, 2013 17:53:37 GMT -5
QueeenAl: Sometimes I am happy when a day or two on Atop passes me by .... THIS IS NOT ONE OF THEM ...
Jun 7, 2013 15:40:44 GMT -5
halogirl: Hi! I just stumbled upon this webpage and registered......Now it's almost 2 a.m. I'm gonna get some shut eye for several hours. Good morning and I will do some shouting later if and when time allows this weekend.... I
Jun 8, 2013 0:41:47 GMT -5
halogirl: I'm watching ET late at night. They are showing Reese Witherspoon getting arrested. Embarrassing!.... I'd be too...only I don't drink. I missed part of it because I was busy writing this....I better get my hiney in bed and to sleep! Next nastiest feuds
Jun 8, 2013 0:47:03 GMT -5
thelambertluvva: Welcome, halogirl!
Jun 8, 2013 0:53:54 GMT -5
Q3: Proboards is aware of and working on the vanishing avatar problem. I will keep you posted.
Jun 9, 2013 9:39:46 GMT -5
vivlite: Q3..I posted on page 8 about Atop freezing this afternoon and I tried again later to log in. Took forever. I posted on the thread in case others are having trouble. Do you want us to PM you?
Jun 9, 2013 17:25:16 GMT -5
Q3: Viv -- I got it from the thread. On the list.
Jun 10, 2013 0:01:17 GMT -5
vivlite: Thanks, Q3!!!
Jun 10, 2013 12:27:22 GMT -5
mszue: I did not want to try editing my earlier post Q3 but I tried again on Safari, just now, and had no problem!! ~shrug....fyi
Jun 11, 2013 14:32:22 GMT -5
mszue: And then, when posting the shout out, I got an error message...with the lined out 'angry bear' message, but the shout posted....call me confused....but they need to seriously revisit their hiring criteria as they are not getting it right, at the moment! :(
Jun 11, 2013 14:35:39 GMT -5
Q3: They are working on the Member Search function -- if you are looking for someone use the page numbers to move thru to the person you want. That is working, database look-up is not working.
Jun 17, 2013 16:16:26 GMT -5
