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Post by Kamar on Jul 4, 2013 12:37:23 GMT -5
The Roller Coaster Series : Day 61
I'M BACK , PUTAS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know , I know .
I know it's been AGES since I last posted .
I know you guys were probably pretty fucking worried about me .
I actually did this on purpose just to make you guys worry about me .
It was my pleasure to go "off da grid" and leave this thread and not hear anything new about Mr. Adam Fucking Lambert , and not know anything about you guys .
What's Adamtopia , anyways ? I mean , really , what's the point of being an active meber of an active forum , a forum that talks about a singer ?
I mean , I was really happy with no news about Adam Lambert , and no information whatsoever about his whereabouts , It was really super .
I didn't know what he was doing , what he was tweeting , what he was facebooking , what he was instagraming , what he was vineing , what he was keeking , what he was wearing , what he was talking about , where he was going , what he was eating , who he was with , how he was , I didn't know anything new about A3 , no rumors , no leaking , no ninja-ing , no mashed potatoes , and IT WAS TOTALLY AMAZING !!!
I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER !!!
I was so relaxed . I mean , it was so AWESOME .
I mean , Adamtopia is so boring , and Adam is even more boring .
I don't know where my brain was when I became a Glambert . I must have been blind . Or deaf .
Or stupid .
Really .
WORST CHOICE OF MY LIFE .
Life with no Adam Lambert is better .
If you believe any of the stuff I said above , then you don't know me at all .
Or maybe you should get your brain fixed .
THE DAYS I SPENT WITHOUT INTERNET WERE THE VERY FUCKING WORST DAYS OF MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE , I'M SO FUCKING GLORIOUSLY FUCKEROUSLY HAPPY THAT I'M BACK . I'M FUCKING CRYING WITH TEARS OF JOY !!! MY HEART IS BURSTING WITH HAPPINESS , I'M DANCING AND JUMPING ALL OVER THE HOUSE !!!! I'M SCREAMING LIKE A MOFO !!! I'M SO HAPPY I GOT BACK TO TALK , SPECULATE , BERT , SCREAM , NINJA , LAUGH , AND CRY WITH YOU GUYS !!!! OH MY FUCKING GOD , THANK YOU , THANK YOU SO FUCKING MUCH !!!!!! OH GOD , DON'T EVER DO THAT TO ME AGAIN , I'M BEGGING YOU , I'M DOWN ON MY KNEES BEGGING YOU , DON'T EVER DO THAT TO ME AGAIN . DON'T MAKE ME LIVE THAT AGAIN , PLEASE .
DON'T TAKE AWAY FROM ME THE THINGS I LOVE .
DON'T TAKE AWAY FROM ME THE PEOPLE I LOVE .
OMG NOW I CAN BE A GLAMBERT AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!! 24/7 !!!!!!!!!!!!
GOD , THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THE INTERNET AND THE ELECTRICITY BACK .
CAN I GET A HALLELUJAH ??
I'm so , so , SO VERY FUCKING sorry I worried you guys .
The Internet was cut !!! And the electricity was cut !! It was awful !!
Oh my God I'm so glad I'm back , I know you guys were worried , I'm fine , healthy , my family is fine and healthy , we are fine , our house is fine , our city is fine , it's good .
To tell you the naked truth , I was worried about myself too .
I was worried about what was left of my sanity (it's gone now , all of it , you can relax now , it's all out of control)
But now I'm here . Totally Butt-batti-bananas-Crazy , but I'm here .
I think I have PTSD , too . Oh , and I have unexpectedly weird reactions sometimes . Most of the reactions are violent . That's what the doctors have noticed .
Well , no , that's what I've noticed . No doctors . Ain't nobody got time for that .
Warning : Over the last weeks I've been turned into a CRAZY SARCASTIC MANIAC , so bear with me .
"I remember when .... I remember .. When I lost my mind ...There was something so special 'bout that space .... Even your emotions had an echo .. In so much space ...DOES THAT MAKE ME CRAZY ??"
Possibly .....
Now this , Motherfuckers Ladies and Gentleman , Is the Moulin Rouge . And I'm Lady Marmelade . Or was it Lady Gaga ?
Marmelade , or Gaga ??
Or maybe Starlight ??
Wait , what ??
Sorry , wrong dialogue . Let's try that again .
Now this , GLAMBERTS , FRIENDS , GLAMILY , is something I wrote in my Internet-less days . So it's in present tense . But it's past tense .
Like it's in the present , but it's in the past . And that makes it in the future .
Got it ?
No ?
Me neither .
But anyways ...
*drum rolls*
*clears throat*
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Left In The Dark : (what a cheesy title , I know , whatever)
I'm afraid of the dark . Like , really , really afraid of the dark . I know there is a phobia of that , but I don't know what's the scientific name of it , and I can't google it , 'cause there is no Internet . So I'll just call it "Darkophobia" .
I suffer from it . I hate the dark , if you leave me in a dark room alone I would panic and just go crazy .
That's EXACTLY what's happening to me now .
And while I'm still a little bit sane , and I have an "atom" of hope that the Internet would maybe , possibly , come back , I'm writing this so that someday , IF the Internet comes back , I can post this on my beloved Adamtopia , for all my beloved (and deeply missed) Glamily here .
My Roller Coaster has entered a dark and empty place , and I have no clue as to when it may come out of it .
Now I knew that something like this would happen in this series , it's not very odd for the Internet to be cut for a few days here in Syria .
But this is not "just a few days" , this shit is deeper than that .
Sources told us that the "Internet cable" coming from Damascus to Al-Sweida'a and Dara'a was bombed , and that it may take months to fix .
And now I'm here . Miserably waiting for the net to come back . It WILL come back SOON . I don't believe the bombed cable bullshit . There is NO WAY I'll be without Internet for months .
It's just not possible . God can't do that to me .
Why ?!?!?!
What have I done to deserve this ?
Is there even a MOTHERFUCKING GOD ?!?!?
Now I know that the Internet is not the most important thing in the world , but for someone like me , the Internet is essential .
It's like a breath of fresh air , an open window to the outside world .
It makes me forget all the SHIT here .
I've talked about this before . My way of dealing with all this utter shit is Adam Lambert .
And the only way I can "get" him is through the net .
And besides , I have a Glamily there . Friends .
I mean , how am I gonna stay away for so long ? HOW ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!!
How am I spending these Internet-less days , you ask ?
(Warning : Lots of FUCKS)
(LOL like you guys actually give a fuck about fucks , LAWL)
(Let's just continue , shall we ?)
It is abso-FUCKING-lutely FUCKEROUSLY terrible . I mean I've never ever ever FUCKING ever felt this FUCKERLY BORED in my FUCKING miserable FUCKING damned FUCKING life . Frus-FUCKING-tration is going through the FUCKING roof . My Glambert life is FUCKING OVER . I FUCKING have to FUCKING FORGET ADAM FUCKING LAMBERT !!! Can you FUCKING imagine that FUCKING FUCKERY ?!?!?!??!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fan-FUCKING-tastic .
(if you can't read what the above text says , just take the FUCKS out of it)
(it will lose it's charm , though)
I'm dreaming about the Internet . I'm even dreaming of Adamtopia . I'm dreaming of knowing anything new about Adam . My BB .
I'M DREAMING OF IT , I'M FUCKING DREAMING OF IT .
That's IF I sleep at all . The nights are endless . I can't sleep .
"It's late at night and I can't sleep , missing you just runs too deep , Oh I can't breathe , thinking of your smile ......."
It's ridiculous , really . I've never been this tragic . I've never been this depressed .
Even when my parents divorced , I didn't even shed a tear . When my grandparents died , I didn't cry .
I don't cry for serious things , I cry for ridiculous things .
Maybe because when the serious things happen , I have a way of escaping them .
But when my "ticket to fly" is taken away from me , I start to face all the serious things , .....and it's not pretty . I don't like it . I hate this . I HATE THIS .
God , what have I done ?
C'mon old man , you gotta be fucking kidding me .
Life with no Internet is boring for me . Really FUCKING bad . I know my situation is deadly bad when I turn on the TV and start watching fucking ridiculous baby programs 'cause I just have nothing to do . And by ridiculous I mean FUCKING RIDICULOUS , LIKE DRAMATICALLY RIDI-FUCKING-CULOUS .
The songs .... My fuck , the fucky sucky shitty songs .....
About tomatoes and chickens and apples .....
It goes something like : "I'm the Apple ... I'm delicious .. Eat me ... I'll make you feel better .....Tralalalala lalala lalala"
So FUCKING Innocent .
And in the middle of all that SHIT I'm thinking all the time : What is Adam doing ? What did he do on the 15th ? Did he sing a new song ? Did he cut his hair ? Did he say anything about A3 ? Did anything leak about A3 ? Did he get a new tattoo ? Does he have a new Boyfriend ? Are there new events ? What about Tweets ? Paparazzi pictures/videos ? Did he shave Melvin ? Did he put on Nailpolish again ? Instagram ? Vine ? Twitter ? Facebook ? Keek ? What about new clothes/accesories ? What about Adamtopia ? Is it still there ? Are they missing me ? Are they having fun ? What about the Idol stuff ? More rumors ? What about events ? Hell , is Adam even still ALIVE ? My God , I can't take all of those frequent unanswered questions , they are driving me fucking nuts .
I'm left in the dark and I don't know my surroundings . I have a phobia of the dark , so this is kinda like the same thing .
And I'm terribly scared right now .
Now I remeber that I once posted "I need a break" .
But trust me , not this kind of break . Not like this .
Never , ever like this .
Imma write it like this , imagine that you're gearing up and getting ready to break up with your boyfriend/girlfriend , and after a lot of thinking you finally make up your mind and meet up with him/her , and before you say a word he/she says : I'm breaking up with you .
Wait , what ? How ? Why ? I WAS THE ONE BREAKING UP WITH YOU , GOD FUCKING DAMN IT , YOU'RE SUPPOUSED TO BE THE ONE CRYING FOR ME TO COME BACK !!
And now I'm the one broken and begging you to come back .
I never really wanted to break up with you anyways !! I want you !! I love you !!
I cannot live without you !!
PLEASE COME BACK , I'M BEGGING YOU , I'LL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU TO COME BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'll do absolutely ANYTHING .
So , 17 Internet-less days and counting . We have called the Internet company countless of times and they don't know when the Internet is coming back . LOL they DON'T KNOW . HOW RIDICULOUS .
IT'S YOUR MOTHERFUCKING JOB , GOD FUCKING DAMN YOU !!! AND YOU DON'T FUCKING KNOW ?? WELL THAT'S FUCKING GREAT , AIN'T IT ?? BRAVO !! FUCKING BRAVO !! DO YOU WANT ME TO CLAP OVER YOUR WHORE ASS , BITCH ??
FUCK YOU .
Oh , what is Adam doing right now ? News ? Pics ? Vids ? Tweets ?
I miss him so much , and I'm actually going crazy , not knowing anything about him these days .
WHEN WILL THIS END ??
IT'S ENOUGH ALREADY !!
HAVE MERCY , GOD FUCKING DAMN IT !!
"Let me out of this dream ....."
"Everywhere that I go , I see another memory ......"
Really , everything , EVERYTHING reminds me of Adam and Adamtopia .
For example , Mom and I were out shopping and guess the names of the shops I saw ?
"Adam Kids" , "Ali Baba" , "The Queen" , "Nirvana" , "Glamour" , "Shady" (yeah shady is a name here) ... But , guess what's the name that pulled on the strings of my heart the most ?
"A3"
I swear , guys , I just wanted to drop to the fucking ground right fucking there in the middle of all those fucking oblivious people , curl into a fucking ball , and WEEP MY FACE OFF .
I cannot take this any longer .
Will it really be months until I finally get my Internet back ?
Oh , just thinking of it gets me an asthma attack . Oh , and it makes me drop some involuntary tears , too .
Hey I can't help it . I miss Adamtopia . And I miss Adam Lambert . And I miss Facebook . And I miss Twitter .
I'm listening to lots of songs lately . And , all of the "fluffy" songs that I never fully understood are finally making sense for me , with the Internet absence in mind .
"Sleepwalker" , "Can't Let You Go" by Adam Lambert , "Incomplete" , "I Still" , "Inconsolable" , "Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely" , "Any Other Way" by the Backstreet Boys , "Wish You Were Here" , "When You're Gone" by Avril Lavigne , "Breathe Easy" , "If You Come Back In My Life" by Blue , "Stay" by Rihanna , "Don't Leave Me" by P!nk , "Right Here Waiting" by Richard Marx , and on and on and on ....
I'm dedicating all these songs to the Internet . And Adamtopia .
"When you're gone , The pieces of my heart are missing you ... When you're gone , the face I came to know is missing too .. When you're gone , the words I need to hear to always get me through the day , and make it ok .... I miss you ..."
"Wherever you go , whatever you do , I will be right here waiting for you ....."
"Oceans apart , day after day ... and I slowly go insane ...."
"I took for granted all the times that I thought would last somehow ..."
"There you go , caught you crashing my dreams again , just when I try to get over you .... "
"I can't seem to comprehend a day without you ...."
"Take back that sad word goodbye ... bring back the joy to my life ..."
"I can't forget the day you left , nights are so unkind ... and life is so cruel without you here beside me ..."
"Who are you now ? are you still the same or did you change somehow ? What do you do at this very moment when I think of you ?"
"I try to go on like I never knew you , I'm awake , but my world is half asleep , I pray for this heart to be unbroken , but without you all I'm going to be is Incomplete ..."
"Everywhere that I go , I see another memory , and all the places we used to know are always there to haunt me , I walk around and I feel so lost and lonely , you're everything that I want , but you don't want me ...."
Do you see how depressed I am ??
I. Need. The. Internet. Back.
I can't take this any longer .
19 Internet-less days and counting . It's 2/07/2013 . The Internet was cut on 14/06/2013 .
I wonder what's going on in Adamland .
Why oh why did God do this to me ? He took from me my "favorite teddybear" and now I'm inconsolable .
Oh , btw , my school results came out yesterday . They were really good .
Thank the Universe . I actually can't take bad results right now in this condition . I wouldn't be able to deal with them . I'm way too depressed right now so bad results would be too much .
I want my teddybear back . RIGHT FUCKING NOW , DO YOU HEAR ME , OLD PUSSY ??
Argh , I'm sure Atopians have noticed I'm not there . And the Internet cutting is not on the news anywhere so they'll probably think I'm doing this on purpose or something .
No , they know better than that . Why would I be doing this on purpose ? I'm such a good religious Glambert (My religion is Glambertism) , I wouldn't go and abandon my God (Adam Lambert) and stop Praying (Berting) .
I'm not even kidding . DON'T YOU DARE LAUGH . THIS IS NOT FUCKING FUNNY .
DON'T EVEN SMILE .
THERE , THAT'S BETTER . FROWN , BITCH , FROWN . I WANNA SEE THAT FUCKING WHORE FACE OF YOURS FUCKING FROWNING .
*coughs* Oops , Sorry , I think I'm losing it .
**********Excuse Moi***********
OMG JUST NOW (02/07/2013) (the 19th day) (at 6:30 p.m.) I heard the Internet will come back either tonight or tomorrow .
I don't wanna get excited yet ...
Don't get excited yet , Kamar , don't get excited yet .
Calm your tits , Kamar , it's not official .
but OH MY VERY MOTHERFUCKING GAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWD
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE OH PLEASE I'M FUCKING BEGGING YOU LIKE A FUCKING BITCH , PLEASE GOD LET THIS BE TRUE , PLEEEEEEEEEASE !!! PRETTY FUCKING PLEEEEEASE WITH WHIPPED CREAM AND A FUCKING CHERRY ON TOP .
Will I be able to get to Adamtopia again ? OMG , and twitter ?? I'm gonna see all the new pictures and videos and tweets and keeks and facebooks and youtubes and posts and messages and mashed potatoes and rumors and hints and clues and instagrams and shit and and and and ..., OH MY FUCKING GAWWWWWWWWWWWD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMGOMGOMGOGLOEFAOEFIUWE3ROVY801Y6V5N097WU3ilrctglp4t9nc1'40vg7'BT69CV93785Y2VN8V4NOERTIYUELIRUYEPV698NJ76T98V6EO;SINUVRUIHFKDHGKSHUFSKIFHSLODGHOESHFGTP*OHMYGODI'MSOEXCITED*IJGPWEOSHFLKSDHNVDJKLBHDJQUGEOWUHV4I['NTU8BPN0T9739467295478096T84NCU3WYTRGEWQGCKIEGUHI23TR LT%^&$%^rvt#wvtR8TUVN4TC9IRMC409T8UB38YC4P59UVN445T5UONW8RUPWUV85YV8TY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But , true to my realistic and down to earth Taurus nature , I'm not getting excited yet . I'm not that naive .
BUT FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKITY FUCK !!! OH MY VERY MOTHER FUCKING GAWD .
Alright , so it's 11:08 p.m. and no Internet yet . No news about the Internet whatsoever .
You won't believe how bad I feel . I feel sick . Wait , I AM sick .
Seems like when the time was getting late and there were no news about the Net , I started to feel nauseous and now I have a REAL BAD diarrhea .
I haven't eaten anything for this to happen to me today . So , I guess it's psychological . LOL .
I'm starting to get sick .
Were the news fake ? I mean , they weren't official , but , I mean , they were fake ??
My fuck I can't take this . If this situation goes on any longer I guess I'm just gonna die or something . I'm not even kidding .
I WISH I WAS KIDDING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh , thanks for DISAPOINTMENT , I really needed it .
Alright so 20 days and counting . I couldn't sleep at all last night . Actually I spent last night throwing up . What a miserable night , really . It wasn't until 5:00 a.m. that I could finally sleep a little bit . It was awfully disgusting .
Will the internet come back today ?
So , today is the 21rst day , I woke up at 4:30 a.m. to go and work out (yeah that's what I've been doing , I gotta do something useful , right ?) and when I got back , I slept ..... and slept ... and slept ....
All the time I was thinking , Omg , today we complete 3 weeks without Internet .
Seriously , this summer is the worst summer ever .
Alright so there is a rumor that the Internet will come back today .
I'll just wait and see .
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Yeah , so , The Internet has FINALLY COME BACK ON THE 4TH OF JULY .
After 20 days wiht no internet .
BUT NOW THE ROLLER COASTER IS ON , AND MORE HARDCORE THAN EVER .
So , here comes the classical question :
What have I missed ??
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