Thank you Linda for your compliment.
Google Translate is helpful, but you can not rely on it completely, sometimes turning the sentences in a different meaning and it is irritating. I have to check a few times what I write, what takes me a long time and it annoys me, makes me forget what I want to write, what is the reason that I do not write with you here much.
I miss very much that I can not have a conversation with you and I will never have them at your level. Every my writing here, even something us a short one for me is very emotional. I'm shaking like a leaf, sometimes I get tears in my eyes, I'm afraid, I'm excited etc.
Suddenly feeling of shame comes, then I think, maybe it's not quite so write, maybe it will be sounded stupid, omg! Should I send it to you or not, then I erase what I wrote and re-think what to do. Yes, many times I give up and erases my writing, but it is not easy for me to be completely silent, so from time to time I'm writing, because inside me I can not stop myself not to.
Please do not be mad at me for this post and for the other one, but this is giving me the opportunity to explain to you as my strange stay with you and for my repetition of the things that I see that I'm doing, I'm sorry.
I would never had a computer and attempted to write in English, with my trouble concentrating in thinking.
You're right Linda, because Adam, I'm trying to do things that I would not try to do and because Adam, I leaned out beyond my comfort zone.
Tom once told me: Adam came to you for a reason, mom, I never thought that I would see you with commuter and despite everything you will try to write in English, then he gave me a hug.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwUxMSpPAgY
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This is everything I didn't say
Indeed they are!! 
