Thank you, Tinafea, for posting Deb's obituary.
I'm not sure why - but the loss of this bright Adamtopia light has been met with a sadness I didn't realize I would feel.
Because, as I said, quickly, as a first reaction to the news, it feels like Adamtopia is fading away.
I apologize for my remark - but it was made in honesty.
I began this Adam journey in 2009 - and it enthralled me for many years. Until I had my own tragedy to deal with. However, before that fateful day, I'd had times with Planet Fierce, and then Adamtopia, that truly felt like love. Love from friends I never knew - or didn't come to know until we met pre-concert at Adam events. Adamtopians were there when my new granddaughter nearly lost her fight with life. In the late, late hours of the night, when I had nothing but hope in me, the members of this forum kept my light alive. Later, when my mother died, friends consoled me and understood in ways I hadn't known, myself, until then.
Through those trying times in life - ones we all experience - Adam stayed as my stalwart beacon of wonder, light, and joy. Ten years of pure excitement; looking forward to every song, every performance, every 'new look', every interview, every innovation, every step towards equality . . . he made me better. He inspired me to think, and act. In him, I found pure excitement; which I thought was over for me, before.
Then, there was the fire. In one night - October 8, 2017 - I fled with my husband and my life; leaving every single thing behind. Every single thing really does mean every single thing - every pencil, rubber band, family photo, family china, clothes, recipe boxes, address books, albums, art . . . and, of course, everything 'Adam'.
In the ensuing days, I realized how little all those things; all those possessions really mattered. Yes, they really mattered; but also, they didn't matter a bit. We were starting again - and, since that day, I haven't suffered from PTSD or fear of fire. What I live with is a lack of excitement. I live with this new reality.
So, I'm moved, in a very quiet but true way, by the loss of this exuberant, loving and wonderful woman. Maybe she is waking me up to emotion.
Yesterday, I told my DH that an Adamtopian friend had died. She had wanted to see Adam in Las Vegas. He said, "Don't worry . . . she's already there."
I'm hoping to be there, too, with Deb. Not just in person, but in spirit.
Thanks for reading.
Love, momtomany
