Well. Well. Well, fucking well!
I know Adam will be iconic. Why do I know?? Why have I always known???
Because, this man can turn a 61-year-old woman, who, mind you, has raised five boys (so, junk does not necessarily impress); has a fantastic, married-43-year's husband (yes, we were teenagers and for god's sake it was the summer of love and we were like rabbits!); who is involved daily in a career that reminds us of the precious value of living; who doesn't buy much clothes anymore, has never had a massage, paints her own toenails, feeds the dog and mows the lawn and wipes sticky, chubby fingers . . . . . . who has just changed the vacation plans for London and now has added Moscow!!!!!!!!!
WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME????
I DIDN'T VENTURE BEYOND THE USA TILL 2002 - - AND I'M GOING TO MOSCOW?????????!!!!!!!!!!!
So sorry!!! A little flailing here!!!
Truly, I cannot explain this. On June 27 we will embark on a trip of a lifetime; which now will include both Moscow and London! I have to do this. I am compelled. I'm afraid my sons are watching their inheritance fly away on golden wings!
The best part is that they're applauding me for it. With wrinkled brows, but still glad for the joy they see; even if they're not sure. Actually, one son (Penelope's father!) hugged me in the kitchen and said "It would be easier if 'your other son' wasn't our age!"
He has a point there. As a middle child, I remember the sensitivity I felt in between my older sister and younger brother. Sometimes I felt lost.
So, it is up to me to live life to the full measure I can; feel the music again and the ecstasy of it! Also knowing, and paying attention to the family that gave me more than song; that reveal to me the symphony of life.
I am so fucking happy right now I can hardly stand it!!! I think I need a bath.