Hi Everyone,
My name is Ann, and I'm an Adamaholic! This is my very first post and I'd like to thank everyone on this forum for not only the pleasure and fun but also the reassurance you've given me over the last couple of months of my addiction. I've never felt this way about a celebrity before and without you I'd probably have felt like a bit of a freak because I had no idea it was possible to feel this way about someone you've never even met. But knowing that my symptoms are quite normal for a Glambert, indeed to be expected, has turned what could have been a secret embarrassment into something to be celebrated and enjoyed!
I'm a very new Glambert, just since New Year's Eve. When friends asked me how I spent New Year's Eve they were surprised to hear me reply "I fell in love". Even though I've always liked Queen, I was never a fan as such and if there'd been anything that appealed to me more on TV that fateful night I wouldn't be here on this forum now. Needless to say I was blown away. All these songs that are part of our national culture but which had never really resonated with me before, suddenly took on a new life. Adam's vocals, his showmanship, his absolute gorgeousness plus the fact that he was obviously having an absolute blast on the stage was totally infectious. I was immediately hooked.
And so, like the majority of my fellow Brits I was on Google on New Year's Day to find out "who is Adam Lambert"? I did vaguely recollect reading about him in our national press when he was on Idol but that was as far as my exposure to him went. I had no idea that he'd been on tour here after his first album or that he'd been on several TV shows. But thanks to YouTube I was able to catch up pretty quickly. Within a fortnight I was in possession of both CDs and the Glam Nation DVD. The first track on FYE seemed really appropriate to me as other than a bit of background radio in the car, I'd completely lost touch with the music scene and here was Adam making me want to listen to music again. (That was the text of the message I wrote to him on the fan birthday card I signed in my first month of fandom!!).
Three months in and I've had a crash course into Adam's Idol journey, his career to date (going back to the age of 10 - I'm very thorough in my research!), his different looks over the years, his relationships, his cars, his houses. (Did I leave anything out?). Without this forum I'd have felt like an online stalker but because I know that most of you here are just the same I can enjoy my addiction, knowing I'm in good company!
Sadly I wasn't able to get to a live concert but I was online for the live streams at almost every show. One night there was a live video stream, I'm sure many of you were in attendance too, and during Radio Gaga Adam came right past the person filming and looked straight into the camera and I literally screamed like a teenager. In fact, this new love has definitely made me batshit crazy. I meditate each day, I do yoga and in my normal life I think of myself as being quite "zen" and yet when one of my Facebook buddies who'd been to one of the live shows wrote a comment that "he was no Freddie - not even close", I swear I wanted to stab him through the heart (despite the fact he went on to be very complimentary about Adam - it was too late).
In fact I think I've shed more tears this year than in the past decade. I would cry at Save Me and WWTLF and then cry even harder at the acclaim of the crowds after the "new guy" speech. I cry when I read some of the touching posts on this forum or when I read the blog posts from BadAssAlterEgo. It's as though Adam is my Achilles heel. I just love everything about him. Initially I was blown away by his voice but then to discover what a beautiful person he is inside as well is like the icing on the cake.
Adam has also inspired me to be the best I can be and not to give up. I thought I'd retired and was looking forward to a life of leisure but financial constraints have left me no choice but to learn a new profession which I'm loving but it's really challenging. Reliving Adam's journey, which certainly hasn't been a walk in the park, has been a terrific boost to me in my new endeavour.
When the tour was over I was relieved in one way, to get my evenings back, but sad in another as I thought there wouldn't be much happening for a few weeks until the single was released. I've been delighted to find that almost every day there's been some kind of "sighting" and so still lots going on. Otherwise I'm sure I'd have had withdrawal symptoms.
To me, as someone coming quite late to the party, it's as plain as the nose on my face that Adam is on the verge of worldwide superstardom. I feel as though I've arrived just in time to be part of it all. Thanks again to every single person here for the huge amount of enjoyment you've brought me every day this year. Here's to Adam and Adamtopia!
