As usual,
NoAngel, your post really has me thinking.
The Sia statement breaks down into three basic parts for me. What are my expectations, (and here I prefer the connotations of the word "hopes" over expectations) for Adam in terms of his career, what are my expectations from Adam personally, and am I delusional with regards to my~stanning of him, LOL?
My hopes for Adam in terms of his music and career are for Adam to put out a second album he feels good about, and that allows him to have enough of the kind of success he craves, to feel that he is moving forward and not backward with his career. However, as I do not know how he personally defines any of that, it is fun to speculate about what that might look like, especially as I wait for the next step of his career to unfold. It is kind of
like stanning a pro sports team during the off season and discussing individual players and
trades and team strategies that might be effective for the next season. For me, it is all just hobby-talk, and when Adam's real 2cnd CD season begins, I will be backing whatever strategies he plays and buying tickets to every home court concert and cheering him on wildly from the sidelines. And like Jack Nicholson with the Lakers, I will be there for many seasons to come.
What I expect from Adam in the future personally, as a fan, is just more opportunities to see/hear him play. There are many opportunities I am enjoying now to play Adam: you tubes of concerts, of videos, of past performances, of the AI season, FYE, Acoustic Adam, GNL Adam...Adam has been smart about that. And he gives us stunning pictures and
twitter updates to play around with as well. Then there is Atop, an Adam playground where something is always going on 24/7... All of these opportunities to stan keep me fairly ~invested as a fan, LOL.
Which brings me to the last point. When does the investment of Adam time become delusional? When fans begin to seek out ways for Adam to be tangibly present in their real world lives, when they take his successes and challenges too deeply to heart as their own, when they prefer spending more time being with Adam, or in his playground, than they do with their own family members, or when they use time spent with Adam to avoid addressing their own feelings and needs with such regularity that it impacts their ability to be functional emotionally or pragmatically in the business of fully living their own lives
and/or following their own dreams.
For me, it is always good to assess my level of investment from time to time. So far, I choose to put Adam down, albeit sometimes it takes some determined effort, LOL, with enough regularity to invest enough quality time in my real life relationships with family and close friends. I have lost some sleep this past year trying to read through threads or watch concert vids and still grade papers and meet work deadlines. However, being more comfortable with technology, truly because of my Adam stanning, has led me to volunteer
at school this year to be part of our technology implementation program, and I am learning cool tricks and getting all kinds of ideas about how to make my teaching methods more relevant with that kind of implementation. So, I am still following my dreams and adding to them. I am writing more than ever before , and my life feels more enriched through the many new talented and compassionate friends from around the world I have connected with here on Atop.
In short, what I realize is that, like Adam, I am rather easily bored, and have been a bit bored at times with the routine of my life in the past. These days, post Adam, I am far less bored in general.
In my real life, I have learned not to have any agendas about what people should do to make my life better. I am in charge of making my own life good; the fact that the people I love exist already makes my life better. Anything more they want to share with me is a gift they get to choose to give in whatever way they choose to give it. I am grateful for each gift given.
That is how I feel about Adam Lambert.
Discovering the existence of Adam and his music has already been a gift, and whatever he wants to put in the music box next time, and however he wants to package it, Adam 2 will be one more gift to enjoy in a series of gifts to come. It will make life a little better, the same way that all of you here make my life a little better.
One of the most fun things ahead is that we will all be sharing Adam 2 together, and you know that
really will be all kinds of awesome.
* AL Nov. 5th, 2011
And so is Evanescence performing My Immortal. I made some captures and I'd like to share them with you.
