11.2.11 Adam MTV Must Follow Artist!!

I don't know. He would have to take a band if he did that. On further thought, it seems unlikely but I bet he does have a band hidden away somewhere! ;D

Couldn't this just mean whatever he's doing at the EMAs???

Honest to @god, I'm about ready to DROP with exhaustion... can't take anymore flailing tonight. LOL

I don't like surprises. Never have. And I could never quite put my finger on it, until this recent frustration I've experienced and other people's reactions. It's very much like the discussion we had several months ago about who reads spoilers and who does not.

Surprises bug me. I don't like being blindsided. I like being able to research, know, understand and anticipate. Oprah has repeatedly said she loves to be part of a surprise, but HATES when people surprise her. Part of her Aquarian, take-charge personality maybe?

I've had two surprise parties thrown for me in my life. The first one (17) was fun (they were all my high school friends whom I would have hung around with otherwise. The other was when I turned 28; it was thrown by my ex-sister-in-law who was crazy and abusive to my brother. She LOVED throwing surprise parties because it put her in absolute control and the recipient was blindsided.

My family had created this huge ruse about a restaurant I wanted to go to forever. I was soooo looking forward to it, you have no idea. My closest-knit group going to my birthday party at this amazing restaurant. We just needed to pick up my brother ... and suddenly, I'm staring at like my entire Facebook account (okay, not back then), but it was all these people who have nothing to do with each other who I hadn't seen in ages (and didn't particularly care to in some cases). And as all the guests were yelling "Surprise!" I was thinking, "What is even happening here?"

I was kind of pissed. I was pissed because I knew that my sister-in-law did it to put herself in the place of power and the center of attention in the weeks preceding the party.

I don't mean to sound ungrateful, because I know the rest of my friends and family were there with the best of intentions and that was wonderful, but still, I totally believe it she was using it to exert control. I still get an overwhelming feeling of oppression when I think about it to this day. I think that is why I do react so vehemently to people who are keeping us in the dark.

Mind you, I DO NOT THINK ADAM'S FRIENDS/FAMILY ARE TRYING TO MANIPULATE AT ALL. I think they were all sworn to secrecy as part of Adam's strategy, but the result – to me – is still the same. I do not like the feeling of people knowing things that I don't and deliberately taunting with it.

Just a thought, but if there is a performance, it could be one of those showcase performances for radio and Sony people. He did those before. Seems reasonable if he is going to do promo.