I was doing the ironing, the most tedious of all mother's duties:(.
I don't think I did a good job, since Trespassing was blasting into my ears.
Runnin is a masterpiece, right? As I was listening to the lyrics of it, that incident in Finland came to my mind. Because, I kept thinking what he was running from in the song and maybe it's the crazy, booze/pot filled reckless, 'let's party til they take us away' night life.
In the first verse he sings about drinking whiskey, the whole bottle ( gluttonous nature?) and throwing a fit. All that in a very low, almost ominous voice indicating how deep down, down, he is, emotionally.
But then he says he knows what he's after and it's not this drunken stupor: he's been there, done that ( "everything I've seen twice"), he's crawling on this road and he wants to be saved. He sings : "Save me cause I'm fallin'" Who does he say that to? I think Sauli maybe?
And then he hits the key line "cause I keep runnin....runnin from my heart"
He loves the night life, in RS he says:
“I have a very gluttonous, hedonist personality,” he says. “I love the idea of a wild night out, and if there could be an orgy in the corner and a hookah over there - I love the idea of that. But I’m moving out of that phase of my life.”Runnin is about this, moving out of that phase of his life and maybe saying that it's not easy, because he keeps running away from the steadiness and domesticity of monogamous life.
He has to do it, though, because he's sick and tired of it, it's unhealthy, both physically and psychologically, and the damage is damning him. I have no idea what this part means, 'the damage is damning me down, down, down.' Although this kind of life seems exciting, when you do it all the time it gets boring, repetitive ( "Round and around I go') , but he's addicted, he can't break away. The highs are great, but the lows are hell ("The higher, the lower, the down, down, down..".)
As we all know, he does break away from it, and what he realises then is described here :
Oh, I’m coming alive
Oh, I’ll wake up now and live
Oh, I’m coming alive
A life that’s always been a dream
I’ll wake up now and liveIt's really touching how all those wild party nights when he thought he was living his life to the fullest and seizing the day actually left him feeling numb and sick. What really awakens him and makes him feel like he's coming alive is the total opposite: having a boyfriend, staying home, watching movies, and whatever it is they do home alone. It's a life that's always been a dream for him. And I believe Adam to be a great lover (not only sexually) because in Nirvana, his voice gives me the chills: it is so soft, and tender, and loving, and I believe it's the tone reserved for his lover's ears. Lucky bastard:)
He's so happy because he has a boyfriend:)))
I'm too lazy to look for the gif from CL where he says that:)
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MOTHERS 
I didn't even know it was Mother's Day, is it an American holiday, or other countries have it as well?
