5.22.12 THE DARK SIDE - Post here if.....

Hey, it does require a little close reading to get to the dark side which can and should be integrated with all things Adam. IMO.

I can't imagine how grueling this promo has to be for Adam. In this age of digital communication, I wish he could do one Skype interview and be done with it, tho I love when he speaks words. If it were me, I'd be wanting to crush the same old questions like the pomegranate.

I feel sad that just like other people who are breaking new ground and have or are crossing societal barriers, that Adam has to be extra perfect. That he is everything--talented, attractive, intelligent, articulate, you know the list--and still has to walk uphill in a snowstorm makes me cringe at so called societal norms.

It is trivial, yet not, that a soap opera Bold and Beautiful ( don't judge me I've sent out 1000 resumes in the past year trying to get work, but have more than a little time on my hands) is running a storyline about a lesbian couple who are struggling with being open about their relationship, and multiple reactions and points of view are being explored--well, as much as daytime tv allows. Soaps also brought inter-racial relationships, alcoholism as a disease and seeking counseling for emotional problems into the mainstream discussion. (I did a paper on this once back in the day).

I do hope that someday we can all "be free to be you and me" ((Marlo Thomas). Somedays looking at Adam's struggles, I despair. Having fought against and cracked the corporate glass ceiling, I find I now get to fight ageism. Enough crying and whining for today, but thanks for listening.

*bookmarked*

Thank you everyone for your thoughts. <- Is one allowed to smile in here?

Well, I managed to find my way here with some difficulty. Well hidden thread, lol! I think this could be a very useful thread. I know there are many days for me, when I want to talk about something *dark* but then think that I'll just bum everyone out or look stupid. Guess this is the place to do it.

We can't always be *light*. Just not possible for me. Too many ups & downs in RL. We all have dark and light days, as does Adam, I'm sure. I know I want to feel free to express that without feeling that I'm going to get bashed about it.

I'm not one to worry about the numbers, mainly because I don't really understand it all. I do jump into the numbers thread on occasion, but most of the time I leave that up to the experts.

I think the one thing that really bothers me and truly upsets me the most is some of the stuff I see on twitter (which I know we are not supposed to bring to the main thread). Everyday on twitter, I read crap from supposedly real Adam fans that diss him in everyway possible. I know I could tweet them, but I don't. I could unfollow them, but I don't. Don't know why, guess I just want to try to understand why they claim to be fans and then constantly put down his clothes, his hair, his choices, his management, etc. I guess it's not that big of a deal, but when it's the same people over and over, it makes me sad and a bit angry. Another thing I see there which really, really pisses me off is the put downs to Atop on twitter. Do those people really think we don't see that? UGH!! We do!!

Rjackspf, glad to see you here. I completely understand where you are coming from also. I just finally got a part time job after 8 months of looking. Had another job for a year, after looking for 1.5 years for that one. The job market sucks!! Especially if you are older, which I am. Starting something totally new has been the worst mental stress I've ever had in my life. I now work every Sat., Sun. and Mon. at 5AM! I'm finally getting what I'm doing, but it's hard and it affects me not only mentally, but physically. I am thankful I found something and I hope it gets easier, which I'm sure it will. Wishing you good luck on your job search. This is surely not where I planned to be at this age.

Well, now that I've vented a bit, I'm going back to the light side to see what's up. I generally don't worry too much about Adam. It's so out of my control that I think I just put it to the back of my mind and try to embrace all the good that is happening.

I will say that when I saw he was going back to FS last night, I almost cried. Not that I'm not happy that he's going or that so many can go, but after the first FS, I told myself that if he ever went again, I was going to go no matter what. Well, that is totally impossible at this point in my life. I won't even be up for the celebration on here as pacific time is 2 hours later than here and I have to be up at 3AM to get ready for work. So, it made me very sad. I know there will be vids, etc., but even being here for it helps. I'll be lucky if I ever get to see Adam in concert again. I live in a place where nothing he does is close to here. He is doing the radio concert in Des Moines, which is a few hours from here, but it's also on a weekend. So, not possible for me. I will have to just be happy to experience what I can online with all of you, which is always a joy, for sure.

Ok, off to see if my coffee is done. I need to be productive today...lol!