I know we all have our own lives; perspectives; angst; dilemmas; sadness; illness; families; kids; jobs - - we just live. I'm already getting wordy.
I just don't know how to tell all of you this.
By now many of you know I'm a nurse. I work in acute hospital care. Every day, I have the privilege of sharing the most intimate moments in life. Aside from being 'momtomany' I'm also a daughter. And I have this precious mother; the mother I curled up with in the den after school. I'd nap while she'd read her book. I lived under her chin.
She is in hospice care now. Her lasting gift to me is we can talk; she can't hold the phone but we can talk.
I was planning another trip to see her next week- the 800 miles is a journey I measure in 15-minute intervals, and know with every song I play in the car - courtesy of Adamrocks - who I will love forever.
I was going to be there on Wednesday. Now, I will leave, instead, on Friday; the change in medications will not be effective for a week or so. I thought I would be part of the plan; and so this news disheartened me; and I was sad as I told my husband of the change.
He picked me up from work and brought us home, to this quiet house, where all our sons began.
Poured me a glass of wine.
I began to look through the mail. Under a magazine was a hand-written note. On it were the directions to a 'lounge' in San Francisco. My brain began to short-circuit. I couldn't believe what I was seeing!
My darling, the most handsome, charming, sexy, honest, kind, truthful, deliberate person I will ever meet (and I assure you I knew all this the 'first time ever I saw his face' when I was sixteen) found a way to assure I will be happy on Wednesday. I will meet Adam on Wednesday at noon at the Radio Alice Show.
Just don't know what to say.
I want you to know there really is 'love at first sight'. Happened to me in May, 1966.
And now he's braising scallops for dinner.
Just want to cry over this love, this life.