The Moon Garden Lounge

Hi there all you moonies!

I am home alone for the first time since May of this year, we have had my mom here, my brother-in-law, then my son home from college for two months, plus my oldest grandchild, and then my older son and his family of four children, plus DIL's dad were all here last weekend.
Hubby has gone out of town for the week, so I finally have time to spend on Adam (although just a little bit, there is so much upkeep to do after all the company we have had, and yardwork, cause we got rain last week, YAY!).

I have enjoyed all the posts and inspiration here, and yesterday and today I was thinking about Adam, and what it is that makes me so enthralled/head over heels crazy about him. Who hasn't questioned their own sanity when it comes to stanning Adam? He is such a wild child, and such a mover and shaker, and the recent "new do" caused quite the conversation.

I think that Adam is teaching me about unconditional love.

Giving and/or showing unconditional love is difficult. The closest I think we come (I use "we" as a general term here) is in loving our own children, (or our parents when we were children). Even that is hard, as sometimes what they choose to do with or in their lives makes it very hard not to pass unfavorable judgement on. In my family, of 5 kids (his, mine and ours), we are completey estranged from one, and temporarily "not communicating with" another.

My mom, who will be 90 in Jan., comes to visit me for 3 weeks every year. All of her friends ask her "how can you bear to spend that much time with your daughter?" Many of her friends have little or no relationship with their grown children. But for us it is easy, because my mom loves me unconditionally. This was not always true in my past, especially during my "wild child" years of the early 70's. I did some things that she just couldn't handle. But now, my mom never says an unkind word to me, she never judges me, and she always gives me love and support, she lifts me up and makes me feel very special. She is a joy to be with, and quite lively and fun for her age. Maybe she has just mellowed with age and also maybe it helped that I finally grew up....................

When my older boy was a teen, he went through some very tough times, and was in trouble. I wrote down the words to this song and sent them to my son, it is the best I can do in describing what my understanding of unconditional love is:

Alanis Morissette "You owe me nothing in return"




And now back to Adam Fucking Lambert, the outrageous, flamboyant, non filtered, honest to a fault, and F*CK you if you don't like it, most amazing person on the planet: AFL the charming, uber talented, intelligent, beautiful sweet old soul:

I Just Love Him So F*cking Much!!! I don't care what he wears, what he does, what he says, how he says it, who he does/says it with, etc, etc to the Nth degree. I am a card carrying member of team #adamcandowhateverthef*ckhewantsandIwillloveit! And him.


I love AFL unconditionally, that is all. ^^^^^Just does not matter what he.....(see above)^^^^^

And I don't even know this man, I have never met him, and doubt that I ever will.

Now, how can I emmulate/project/transfer onto/ or just plain FEEL the same kind of feelings/affection that I have for Adam to/for the other important people in my life? If I could learn how to unconditionally love my __________ (spouse, child, parent, friend, relative) the way I love Adam, that would really be something.

I am working on it............................................
Tonight I will pick up the phone and "communicate"

Thanks Adam, for all you inspire in me, for what you teach by living your life honestly and fearlessly. I am grateful for the light you have brought into the world.

Jumping in here again just to add a few comments to some recent posts.

First of all, Mahailia - I love your post and can relate to it. I live in a multi-generational household - me the grandma ,my son who has severe back problems and can only work part time, my daughter-in-law who also works part-time because of their autistic son, and then their 3 kids, all now teenagers. It's a house full to be sure, but I'm committed to seeing this through for the kids. Neither of my daughter-in-law's parents are living, so it's up to me as the matriarch of all of this to set the tone here for a peaceful positive living situation. And there are definitely times when I need to remind myself about unconditional love.

I also need to make sure that I get some "me" time in all of this - and this is where Adam comes in. I love his talent and the concerts that I've been able to attend, but mostly I love who he is as a person and the way he navigates through life - always seeing the glass half-full. With all the current hoopla (his new release, the AI speculation), I've been enjoying revisiting his recent visit to the Japanese tea garden - his funky outfit, sharing miso soup (??), getting bit by a mosquito, and best of all, singing a capella to his lovely interviewer - a low key interview, but at all times charming and gracious - reminds me of why I'm so drawn to him.




This is a Japanese friendship garden where I live

Also mirage mentioned 'The Big Year' again. Well, as some of you now know, I'm a birder, so this is another one of the "me" things that I do. Migration season is getting underway, so us birdy people are checking out local areas to see what special gems we can find. Yesterday I saw some Baird's Sandpipers at the SF Baylands stopping by on their way to South America, and a few days earlier a Baltimore Oriole (rare for the West Coast) was found in a local park. Often I meet up with fellow birders where we share in our excitement and wonderment of these bits of feather and bone.




Geese on migration

Welcome back Junie!

ETA: Imma take a break for a while - somebody water the plants and get the garden ready for fall, stoke the braziers, buy wine and treats so we may sit outside in golden afternoons as they drift into the crisp chill of evening. I might even take a break from my chai with a little Calvados.



Summer is not my favorite season and it's dragging on. I told someone today that - re real life - I'm letting the pettiness of things get to me much more than usual. I think the universe is trying to tell me something and I want to think about it a bit. So I will sit for a while. And I will try to return with a few new words.

It seems timely to leave my wholly unoriginal 2 cents re Idol possibility. (As an aside, it seems the ship's deck listed a bit as a few rushed to the 'I was always Team Idol' side, but, but... that's not what you... oy vey, never mind ).

Anyway, I've never had strong feelings either way but if it makes Adam smile so brightly (and I can see the household name thing being a huge boost for visibility) then count me in. My vague concern when the idea was first floated was whether he would have to seriously compromise his opinions to follow evil Nigel's script. But not worried now- both because it's not Adam's style - and if the line-up mentioned today happens, I can't see Urban or Minaj going along with it either (I think Nicki's extremely talented and while I personally don't care for her-based on interviews from earlier in her career- she doesn't seem to be very concerned about pleasing tptb and maybe she's matured *cough*).
And, well, Adam on my television every week - twice a week at times... oh, go ahead, twist my arm :D. And, you know, if it doesn't happen - so f*cking what? - some other delightful thing will come along because that's the 'unhappy' life of an Adam fan. (I've had 'Is This Love' on repeat - for some reason Adam's performance of this song has really moved me.)

In the meantime, may all of your gardens flourish under the sun and the moon.




...try to say what you see and feel and love and lose. Don’t write love poems; … rescue yourself from these general themes and write about what your everyday life offers you; describe your sorrows and desires, the thoughts that pass through your mind and your belief in some kind of beauty...(Rilke)