The Moon Garden Lounge
Nov 6, 2012 6:51:15 GMT -5
Post by nikki on Nov 6, 2012 6:51:15 GMT -5
Yeah, it is a bit lonely without Junie. She is one very special lady - she just puts things out there that are interesting to her and hopes for dialogue. I have found only kindness and acceptance from her.
I have very little experience of fan sites, which seems to be the same for so many of us. And at times, I wonder what I have got myself into and why.
My initial interest in Adam came at a time when so many things in my life were changing. I watched Adam purely by "chance" during AI, a show I'd never seen before. Some of the changes were of my own initiative, others the things of life that are out of our control. At the time I discovered Adam, my sister, who was my lifelong best friend and one other dear friend both had cancer and were being treated. My sister didn't survive, my friend did.
Adam served at one level as an escape from pain and loss, the simple need for pleasure, and at another as an inspiration to move forward. Both were equally important to me at the time.
Along the way, I actually started to see him, not just the parts of him that served my own needs. And there the real fascination began, where it also became about sharing that experience with others.
I am incredibly fortunate to have some very, very good, lifelong friends and we know each other inside out.
Part of the beauty of that kind of intimacy is what Adam said yesterday - "the Feeling between the words" - there is no strain to talk, there are wonderful silences where there is just an enjoyment of each others' company. The judgement is gone because the whole person is known and accepted and hence comes the freedom to be silly, wise and all combinations in between.
Just like today's main thread - I don't know everyone that well, but the same humanity is there in the search for the invisible zipper, the button missing from one shoulder, and of course the acknowledgement that Adam is a very sexy man. Mixed in a cocktail with momtomany's emotional and spiritual reactions to being so near to someone she has loved from afar and mszue's observations about the perfect synergy of technique and emotional connection in Broken English.
It's always seemed strange to me that so much that we appear to respect and love in Adam, from a distance, we do not extend to each other, up close. In particular freedom of expression and genuine inclusiveness. Combined with the fact that we don't have the luxury of truly knowing one another, it seems inevitable that the cycles we see so often continue. From what I see, so many of the disputes, at their core, are ultimately around power and control and what flows from that.
Someone also said recently that it's a happy day on the site when Adam performs. How true. We go back to the feelings between the words again, what we love in him, what he inspires in us, the point where we are most the same. And we express our ideas, tempered by that feeling. Once we drift away from that source, our differences - our emotional natures and ideas become more apparent.
I have very little experience of fan sites, which seems to be the same for so many of us. And at times, I wonder what I have got myself into and why.
My initial interest in Adam came at a time when so many things in my life were changing. I watched Adam purely by "chance" during AI, a show I'd never seen before. Some of the changes were of my own initiative, others the things of life that are out of our control. At the time I discovered Adam, my sister, who was my lifelong best friend and one other dear friend both had cancer and were being treated. My sister didn't survive, my friend did.
Adam served at one level as an escape from pain and loss, the simple need for pleasure, and at another as an inspiration to move forward. Both were equally important to me at the time.
Along the way, I actually started to see him, not just the parts of him that served my own needs. And there the real fascination began, where it also became about sharing that experience with others.
I am incredibly fortunate to have some very, very good, lifelong friends and we know each other inside out.
Part of the beauty of that kind of intimacy is what Adam said yesterday - "the Feeling between the words" - there is no strain to talk, there are wonderful silences where there is just an enjoyment of each others' company. The judgement is gone because the whole person is known and accepted and hence comes the freedom to be silly, wise and all combinations in between.
Just like today's main thread - I don't know everyone that well, but the same humanity is there in the search for the invisible zipper, the button missing from one shoulder, and of course the acknowledgement that Adam is a very sexy man. Mixed in a cocktail with momtomany's emotional and spiritual reactions to being so near to someone she has loved from afar and mszue's observations about the perfect synergy of technique and emotional connection in Broken English.
It's always seemed strange to me that so much that we appear to respect and love in Adam, from a distance, we do not extend to each other, up close. In particular freedom of expression and genuine inclusiveness. Combined with the fact that we don't have the luxury of truly knowing one another, it seems inevitable that the cycles we see so often continue. From what I see, so many of the disputes, at their core, are ultimately around power and control and what flows from that.
Someone also said recently that it's a happy day on the site when Adam performs. How true. We go back to the feelings between the words again, what we love in him, what he inspires in us, the point where we are most the same. And we express our ideas, tempered by that feeling. Once we drift away from that source, our differences - our emotional natures and ideas become more apparent.
) but you shattered my tired melancholy, restored for the moment my fading belief in the good, and made my heart goofy with happiness. 
He thinks about where to actually sign that fits best with the image. Then signs it quite slowly so that his name looks beautifully written. It then gets waved around to make sure the ink is dry before he hands it back with a smile in his eyes, questioning you slightly about whether you like it, but knowing it is your treasure. And it was exactly the same for the 100 people at the two meet and greets that I saw.He was running late both times 
